Will I Keep Writing? Probably so...

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It's Saturday, posting day, and I don't really have anything ready to post.  I don't feel like editing but I need to in order to have something to put out in public.  At the moment, I don't even know if I'm posting the right things.  Who would want to read my ramblings, anyway?  I don't really know.

I could put it out there... my insecurity about writing, but that wouldn't be "professional."  I could ask you to let me know if my writing matters in your world, but that appears to be fishing for compliments.  I could try to work on getting read and getting my thoughts out there to more people, but that seems almost manipulative.  I could just drift off in to the blog fog and not be heard from again, but that feels a lot like failure.  I guess I'm a bit into honesty.

I like to think that I'm writing to encourage you and others.  Truth be told, there a much more base and selfish motivation than that. I write because I process life that way.  I need to write to be sane and to even know what is happening in my world.  I don't really post for you either though I like to think that, too.  I post to keep myself accountable to actually semi-finishing something.

So my secret is out.  I write from selfish motives.  I like to think of it as something I'm giving to the world, but it's simply something I do to survive.  It's really an overflow of who God made me to be.  However, I do want to be an encouragement to others and I would like to get an idea for how I could do that better.

So, this is a shameless request for you to email me (elbeemee@gmail.com) and let me know.  If you have ideas you would like me to wonder about on the blog or ways I could improve format or any other "constructive criticism," I would welcome it.  In exchange for your kindness and critique, I'll email you an essay I wrote entitled, "Protagonist Or Antagonist: Who's Story Is It Anyway?"

When you read the essay compared to this post, you'll see that I'm still learning the lessons I write about and still fail to apply them uniformly.  I'm still following Jesus though.  Maybe we can walk together.  Looking forward to your messages.